Digging in to diet diet diet diet

Woke up this morning with no way to hold my head that didn't hurt. (Its an Engebretson thing.)
I had a head ache from not drinking enough water.
I am trying to get back on track diet wise this a.m..
Why do I feel so lost there? Lost in general this morning.
I am not finding much encouragement out here in this old blog world. I think some how I felt like
there would be friends of a sort.Kind of a virtual world of support.I try to be that for a few that I read, but maybe I have it all wrong and should back off. They might think I am some strange creep off the Internet.
I am trying to evolve my lifestyle so that we are about exercise more and food less?  Better kind of food, more than just less of it.
I do not eat a lot, but when I make a trip to town, I blow it. It is hard to be hungry and go to town with or with out the kids and try to eat in the restaurants and not over eat or eat the wrong kind of foods.I started dieting in January and I did real well for a couple months, say three months and then I hit a wall of some sort and nothing was moving, I hung out there for a while, too long, then it started tipping in the other direction slowly until it had a sudden slide and I have gained back the fifteen pounds that I had lost. So here I go again starting over on the same pounds. Discouraging. I eat lite, organic, but I have area's where I blow it. I exercise at least three hours a week and lead a active lifestyle.Or so it seems its just not enough. so................