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Good morning world,
I find myself inspired by nutrition. Brain foods like walnuts, fish, chocolate, berry's, green veggies and turmeric. So there.haha  Mama had Alzheimer's you see.  Also would like to put some thought into buying stocks???  Any ideas out there?
  I know I seem to be all over  the  place this morning and I am but its only because I am turning over a lot of stones trying to find a niche where I can free fall so to speak on the web and make money doing it, with out cheapening my integrity. Know what I mean? Free fall, ya I mean by that to be able to continue to be honest and eclectic and still have value. People come from all over seeking my advice here at home. I have a natural instinct for the human experience. I know that a lot of this has been because  I have had bad depression. But also my street smarts.Dad always said with pride we were the kinda of people you could come to and tell us you just killed your neighbor and we wouldn't freak out or call the law on you. But we would tell you what you should do in your best interest. People usually make their own situations more complicated than they need to. But my point is this, I could offer a lot of life advice. Mind you I am no dear abbey. Still I know so much from hunting and homesteading to traveling just a lot of different areas that seem to be missed by "Opera" !! There are a whole lot of people out there that do not live the dream nor do they want to. I don't. I want a parallel universe. I want an alternative lifestyle to the alternative lifestyle. Where do the junkies and the trailer trash and the sign flyer's go when they need something besides a welfare line. Not that I am trying to find common ground there either, I suppose there is none , but there are folks out here that don't belong to any body. Rich, poor and in between. Where are they. How do they find me.How do I find them. Why am I so alone? Does anybody know what I am trying to say? Have you ever stood in a room with people you feel no connection to what so ever. Watched a movie and thought why do they assume we all want our lives to be so stereotypical? Is no one out there different? Most especially women. I still feel even here that my words are to hard to understand. If not to hard what, uninteresting? Perhaps.  I am a poet. A really good one. No one will ever read my poems. The ones that have for the most part don't understand them, can't relate to them or could care less.  My Father loves them, my brother and my Uncle are my greatest fans. But why. Is it only because they are family and find common ground there? I really wish I could elicit a response from some one out on the Internet. I  feel like I don't exist out there. Anyone there?
Please do not mind my ranting. Just a morning full of frustration. I am living in limbo hell right now so .... Blessed be.